Gotta wonder...are we seeing things correctly?

After the last couple of days with Declan, it's hard for me to believe that there could be anything wrong with him other than some small delays. This is what gets me frustrated...are we crazy? Are we looking for something to be wrong with him that's not there? I don't think that's it, but some days he is every shade of gray and others he's simply black and white. I don't understand it. Is this just how it is?
We have his second developmental eval next Thursday at 4pm, and still need to schedule his psych eval, occupational eval and his second medical diagnostic. Damn, I don't know what I'd do without EI. Unfortunately, I can only rely on them until December, when Dec turns three. After that, I don't know...

It's these times I live for.

Declan and I had such a great time yesterday when I came home! He was in a terrific mood and very happy, so we played on the bed, just him and I. We laughed so much together and I tickled him, kissed him, just loved him.

I wonder what we'll do if it's Asberger's. I suppose we'll rise above it and fit it into our lives just as we have so many other challenges. He's just so little, and so innocent, and so undeserving of these challenges. It just makes my heart hurt.